Go home.

I’m so homesick. Relationship-sick. Missing my friends and family-sick. Missing that bond that I’ve built over so many years-sick. Seattle has great and amazing people, but that sort of trust and companionship hasn’t settled in yet.

Not sure why it’s hitting so hard right now. Maybe the cold, maybe the holidays. Maybe something’s wrong that I haven’t acknowledged. Maybe coming to realize that time is an important factor, and that it’s not quite so easy building a community.

The people back home are doing well. Not just financially or with relationships, but they’ve grown to be better people. They’ve matured, they’re wiser and stronger, they are what I knew them to be-good people-but also so much more…and I don’t have to worry about them.

That’s the best I could hope for from anyone.

I miss you, I love you. And please don’t worry about me either.