So, December here we go! This is a specially long entry, due in part to the oncoming winter season -and the darkness that it brings- to the end of the semester -where projects pile on- and to the human emotions that never fail to react to the onslaught of…
Change is the only constant variable in life. There will be laughter and happiness, there will be tears and falling outs. Nothing is forever. Forever is just a lie people whisper and scream and write and tell to one another; it’s a false reassurance. It will wash away with the tide, it will be carried off to nowhere by the wind, it will rot in misery, and it will tear and crumble with age. This, of course, is forever.
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An empty soul, as lone as they get.
I was perhaps surprised for a little bit. Not really. Everything always changes. I almost forgot about that.
I think I was scared. More about myself than the other. And in the end, I was saddened not for myself, but for what’s lost between us. I was sad for a bit when realizations came together. And I’d be lying if I said I’m saddened or angered by it still. I’m in a state of resignation, I’m in the process of letting it go. There’s nothing else you can do, is there? Just shrug your shoulders and blame human nature. It’s as simple as that. It’ll come, it’ll go. Life lesson learned at such a young age. Accepting though, is harder than merely learning. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye. There’s no regrets, just goodbye.
The tree-lighting at Rockefeller was last night. I don’t even think I had to move myself, the crowd carried me from one place to another. That’s how absolutely packed it was. Crazyness. It was a fun experience nonetheless.
So, this sums up the whole experience:
‘Do you know where the tree is?’
...uhm.. It’s in that general direction over there
‘We can’t see it.’
But we’ll be able to see the general area light up!! (no we didn’t, but oh well)
5 4 3 2 1..
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
And it was Dec. 1 when I started writing this, but since it is now the 2nd and I’ve just finished writing, I would like to wish lectrae a special happy 18th birthday. I wish you the best in life lectrae.. thanks for being part of my past and sticking with me through the present.