It’s only been a week of break, and I feel as though we’re already done. But no, there’s a whole nother month to go.

And oh look, the 5 has turned into a 6. The 5 was a pretty full year. I just finished archiving the all the photos that have been taken in the year 2005, and it sums it up the year quite nicely.

Highlights include(starting from the early year): pulling off successful HS events(MCC, Senior Citizen Dance, the carwash), enjoying warm days early on(Panera, basking in the sun with full stomachs, first BBQ in March), getting a new spankin’ camera, the Katonah museum, turning 19(ah, they say this is when you turn into a woman, but if only age determined those things!), getting accepted into COLLEGE, prom, GRADUATING(graduation pictures have the biggest smiles I’ve ever seen), BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL PERFECT HOT WARM COOL SUMMER DAYS and SUMMER NIGHTS, the beach, camping, finally living a city life, city wanderings, learning to beging to accept and love art(not only as a hobby but as a profession as well), White Castle nights, city events(CMSV, Ren’s bday, Mr. Philippines, Halloween Parade, getting unwillingly stuck in an Anti-Bush protest, lectrae’s visit, dates at small cafŽs with Amanda, meeting up with lovers right before their finals...), the sights(MET, MOMA, Frick, NYPL).

So yeah, through it all I’ve learned a whole lot about myself. I’ve realized the importance of the relationships I’ve built throughout all my years. There are people that I’ve been unfair to, and I can’t even begin to apologize or explain myself. I look back and reflect and fully realize my selfishness. I don’t know if sorry mends things so easily, but I do hope there will be some sort of understanding. I cannot and will not take full blame of everything since there are some things I just don’t have control over, but I am geniunely sorry for my own wrong doings.

Looked back, now looking forward. 2005 wasn’t any better than years before concerning world events and so I’m pessimistic in that aspect for 2006. As for myself, I feel that it will be a more challenging year. Mainly because I’m waking up and out of my so-called ‘bubble’ and find that there are things that need to be accomplished; things for the good of my future. Then there’s also the love life, or rather, lack there-of . But that I’ll leave be for now, and I’ll worry about it later. I’ve not come across a person thus far who I’d willingly share my (precious) time nor my affections with. I must admit it gets kind of lonely at times, but right now, that need isn’t so bad or crucial as other things

Then, in terms of artistic progress, there has barely been any(since the semester ended, I mean). A few watercolor works here and there, a minute photography session and learning how to airbrush. Hopefully I’ll be doing a lot more this lonesome month. More in general this new year as well.


The times pass on too quickly, and paradoxically it seems to go ever so slowly. This is life I suppose, and I hope you all enjoy the new year we’re about to face. The prayers will still and always be the same: keep the family and friends happy, healthy, safe, and strong. I wish you all the best of everything this new year, cheers and good night.